DAY 2: FOOD WASTING

Today as i was cleaning the kitchen, I realized that there were severel kinds of foods that had gone bad. There was a pasta sauce that i had made weeks ago and had gone bad in the fridge, there was also saturday 14th food as well that had gone bad and also i have thrown away food in the past because it had gone bad. I relize that i have this tendency in me to buy excess food than i can eat. I buy it at that moment because i get appetite for it then later i just watch it rot away. So actually, its not that i am hungry for food, just the fact that I can afford to buy it and that Iget the drive to fulfill my appetite for this food when i buy it ie, my appetite drives me to buy food that i wont normally eat on time. Also, this evening as i was watching a cook and dine program on TV where severeral people take turns to host dinner parties, one of the hosts form of entertainment was to have the guests play with food ie smear on eachother or throw the food on each other. I have seen playing with food also depicted in movies as a form of fun and games for the people where the throw food like muffins, pasta, cake, eggs, milk, tomatoes etc at eachother as a form of enetertainment.

Self Forgiveness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to waste food.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to indulge in excessive buying of food which i can not finish eating in its normal shelf life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to buy food because it looks appetizing and when i actually get to taste the food, it does not taste as good as i pictured/imagined it to be and hence i end up not eating it and throwing it away.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to buy more food before finishing what i have already stocked in my storage hence leading to me throwing the old food away thus wasting.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to waste money (that i would have otherwise channeled to supporting life) through buying lots of food that i can not be able to finish eating and hence throw away.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to buy food according to my egoistic appetite instead of buying and using food as a way that supports me and all as life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desrespect food and the purpose of food when i throw it away.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse the use of food by throwing it away while millions of other people go without eating because they lack or can not afford the food.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse the opportunity of accessing food easily by throwing it away.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fancy playing with food as a form of entertainment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in supporting media that uses playing with food as a form of entertainment.

I realize that my wasting food has a great impact on those who dont have food. Therefore, any moment i find myself participating in a situation where i indulge in excessive buying of food which i most of the time waste, i shall breath and stop myself and will not allow myself to participate.

I commit myself to buy only the necessary quantinty of food i can be able to practically consume.

I commit myself to respect food and what food stands for.

I commit myself to stopping myself from participating in any entertainment that has to do with playing and wasting food.

I commit myself to consuming the food that i buy before buying new food.

I commit myself to stopping my ego to control what foods i buy and in large quantitie just because they look appealing.

DAY 1: SELF COMMITMENT.

When I first heard the of the 7 year Self commitment to Life, i must admit that i felt that this was and would be overwheliming for me to do in terms of writting myself daily. This has been a challenge for me before and the thought of doing it daily for 7 years, just sent me into a frenzy! I know that this process is inevitable if I am to become REAL. I have made excuses before on why I have not done self writting, however this time round, I have chosen to walk this seven year process to birthing myself as life through consistent self writing everyday for seven years.

So, here I am writting my first day of my seven years journey to life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that this is a very difficult journey to walk and that i can not do it.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to perceive this journey as a very difficult journey because of self writting.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive myself as somebody that 'can not do it' when i am faced with a new task.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself accepting the emotion of being 'overwhelmed' to exist within and as me because of how a perceive self writting ie, a difficult task.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive selfwritting everyday as too much to do and that ' I can not do it' every single day.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself for not having realized that through self writing, i am actually practically re-writing my life and transforming it into a life that is best for all through self honesty, self forgiveness, self awareness breath by breath in, through and as the physical, and that through self writting, i am actually able to see myself as who i have become through what i have allowed and accepted and participated in here in this space time reality and actually take responsibility of what I have allowed myself to become through constant participation.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself for not having trust in myself that I can do this.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear making a commitment towards myself because I have forseen myself failing in making it through this commitment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for hesitating to take this opportunity to finally stand up for all life by unconditionally participating and acting in the interest of whats best for all as life in my every moment of breath.

I accept and allow myself to fully commit myself to this this journey of daily writting myself to life.

I realize that i must walk this journey myself in order to birth myself as life and that in order to have heaven on earth, this process is inevitable and so I see and realize that excuses will just prolong this jouney for me, a journey which i must complete. whenever I find myself coming up with any self interest excuse as of to why I do not write myself daily, I stop, I breath and I do not allow myself to be stopped by such excuses.

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