Day 3 - SELF SABOTAGE

SELF-FORGIVENESS

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself writing as not good enough compared to others writing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as not good enough within my writing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within comparing myself to others through my writing, limit myself and the experience of myself through self-writing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the polarity of comparing and judging myself writing as less or more than another person’s self-writing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not to realize that this self-writing is my own process of birthing myself to and as life and has got nothing to do with another ones writing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare my self writing statements to others statements and within this judge myself writing statements as not good enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress my self writing process by comparing and judging my writing to other peoples writing through the context that my writing is not good enough and hence ‘no need to write’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow resistance towards DAILY writing to exist within and as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not to prioritize my time well and thus end up not writing by coming up with excuses as to why I do not prioritize my activities in time and also come up with justifications as to why I do meaningless activities that do not support me in myself writing process.

I forgive myself for not realizing that commitment and consistency in my daily writing is the only way I can cultivate clarity, discipline, commitment and consistency within my writing and thus my process and within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in sometimes watching lots of TV and movies during the day up to the point that I get lost in it and not realize how much time I have wasted and hence postpone my daily writing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to postpone my daily writing by always saying ‘I’ll do it tomorrow’  which in turn leads to piling up of writing which in turn leads me to go to the ‘I give up’ mode within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the myself down by me dragging behind in my 7 years journey to life process

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as regret and guilt for having let myself down.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project me letting myself down as me letting the group down, I  realize it is always only myself that I can let down.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise myself through self-judgment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself throughout the day to a certain point where I have created no time to write.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not to breath, stop participation within the mind and write myself daily until I clear up all mind patterns that I have accepted and allowed myself to become and live throughout my  time here.

SELF-COMMITMENT:

I commit myself to writing myself as me in and as my process and not compare my writing or my process to any other person’s process.

I commit myself to not judge myself through my self writing as it being less or more than the self-writing of another.

I commit myself to stand within and as my process of self-writing without judging myself for I realize that when I am judging myself, it is simply writing from the mind as knowledge and does not come from me as life. I realize that within life exists no judgment of any kind.

I commit myself to take responsibility of all mind patterns that I have allowed to exist within and as me as they play out in my mind in time in each moment of breath.

I commit myself to being HERE in and as every moment of breath.

I commit myself to stopping myself from participating within my mind as thoughts feelings and emotions by breathing and taking responsibility through self-writing.

I commit myself to move in this self-writing process with others together as a group through daily writing.

I commit myself to not wasting time through engaging in meaningless activities throughout the day that do not support me in my daily writing and process.

I commit myself to become consistent and disciplined in and as my daily writing in order to become consistent and disciplined in and as my process as myself of birthing myself as life into and as the physical.

I commit myself to write myself ‘today, now’ and not make excuses and justifications of doing it ‘tomorrow’.